I am wrestling within myself and it is an all too familiar battle. And yet I am still surprised how much I yearn to hide and remain small.
I don't readily or easily talk about all the things I can "do". I rarely offer up the fact that I do divinations, tarot readings, clearings. I almost never talk about cranial touch and it only comes up after I have known someone for several weeks and it feels appropriate. I am playing the game of being a solo, full-time female RVer who travels around and gets workamping jobs and I pretend that is all I am. What I am not sharing are all those other parts of me and I am not sure why. And when I do find myself opening and disclosing my other aspects, I want to duck and run for cover. That is the battle.
I had a conversation with a local massage therapist. In that conversation I was very candid and exposed myself and even offered him a cranial session. In return he offered me space, rent free, so that I could do more cranial touch work. Now I feel that I want to take it all back, wishing the conversation never took place, wanting to hide within Minnie.
I am trying to just allow the timing of all this, to get out of the way and allow......
Sometimes I just really hate not being in control.