Letting Go

The Art of Dharma

October 3, 2009.  That is the day I closed the front door of my house in Eugene and opened the door to a new chapter in my life.  I can barely remember not living a life on the road.  Now, three years later....

I am glad I have kept a blog.  At times it has been uncomfortable sharing my life and personal thoughts with friends, family and total strangers but it has helped me remember the vast and huge life I have led over these years.  It helps me remember all the places I have been, all the people I have met and all the challenges I have faced.  This new life has certainly not always been easy, but easy doesn't promote growth, doesn't bring you to your knees or raise you to your heights.

Guy Finley made the following statement, "The secret of letting go is knowing that life will give you something better than whatever it asks you to give up".

And I have found that to be true.  I miss nothing of what I gave up.  I don't miss a spacious house.  I don't miss the beautiful objects accumulated over many years.  I don't miss having a car, a large bathroom or a fully stocked kitchen.

I have also had to let go of friendships and people I have loved.  Saying good-bye one of the hardest experiences.  It is a constant in my life.

In return I have been given countless friendships and encountered people from all walks of life.  I have explored land that has made my heart sing. Seen sunsets that are divine works of art and starry nights that made me feel small within such an immense cosmos.

I have been given time to read and write.  The gift of countless hours alone with myself exploring who and what I am.  Always in a state of transformation and initiation.

No, not easy.  But in the letting go, allowing the letting IN.