Integrity

It has not been easy for me to live within community and still remain within integrity.  It was so much easier when I could retreat to my Eugene home within the hills, live within my spiritual practice and hide from the world when things became too challenging.  I could choose to never see particular people again, duck and run.  I can no longer do that.

There is no hiding when you live in the open space of an RV park.  Unless, of course, you choose to move frequently.  I am now forced to deal with my own issues of judgment and pettiness, choosing to make an issue out of a non-issue. I don't like seeing this side of myself, but it is something I cannot run from or escape.  It is square in my face.

I am taking time with myself, doing a personal inventory.  There is no one but me to sort through the chaos I have created within myself.